If the outdoor air temperature dropped and the sunshine disappeared, I might feel okay about staying inside with my heating system running

In my world, there are a lot of threats to worry about. Unfortunately, a lot of these dangers are internal rather than external. I can’t always shut out my fears and phobias by closing myself inside of a house, because my mental illness is a formidable enemy under restrictive conditions. That’s why, I’m more worried about the mental effects of this viral isolation than the actual infection, itself. As someone with a young and healthy immune system, I don’t have much to worry about with infection and mortality. However, being told that I have to work from home for the foreseeable future is making me pretty unhappy. I don’t enjoy being cooped up in the house, I hate relying entirely on treated indoor air, and I hate looking outside my windows to see a warm spring time climate marching into the scenery. I know that I would need to use my AC unit soon, no matter what, because of the changing outdoor air temperature. However, I’m extremely bitter about running the old cooling system right now, because it means I’m missing out on the warm relief of springtime outside. I hate that I’m stuck here, while the birds are singing in consistently warm and comfortable air outside. At this point, my mental health is dropping steeply. The only thing that might save me is the possibility of a cold and rainy week. If the outdoor air temperature dropped and the sunshine disappeared, I might feel okay about staying inside with my heating system running. I’d love to hunker down next to my air vents and listen to the reassuring sound of my furnace heating the entire fortress. Something about the juxtaposition of spring, warm air, and isolation just doesn’t work for me.
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