I’ve never had that kind of a bond with any woman in my life and I just feel like I am lost without her.
I’ve never met someone in my life like Kat, this Russian girl, and I don’t think I will ever meet someone like her again. She made such an impact on me and the pure connection we had, this kind of connection where you can look deep into their eyes with no fear or shame, and I don’t think I will ever find something like that again no matter how long I look. I’ve been alone for a year now because my heart is so twisted up over her and I just want to feel happiness again with someone. This local business on the beach is where her and I first met and the first time we looked at each other felt like an eternity. I was working as a heating and cooling expert and she used to come into the heating supplier shop each day and bring me food. I’ve never had that kind of a bond with any woman in my life and I just feel like I am lost without her. I still have to do HVAC equipment repairs each day since losing her and I feel like I barely have enough energy to make it through each day. I don’t like feeling this way but it is a rabbit hole I have fallen into and can’t seem to find my way out. I will keep doing my heating and cooling repairs and working for the local contractor each day, but I really would love to feel the way I felt when I was with her so long ago.